Before you get to your dream, you will be stripped of everything. You will reach your breaking. Before you accomplish that major goal, you’ll be questioning why you even got started in the first place. This is basically where I am. Constantly failing to gain short term “security”.
What I will say to you, and myself is KEEP PUSHING. You might have to change professions, or passions, but don’t quit now. It’s been far too long to thrown in the towel. You just have to get a lot more creative in terms of your approach to what you ultimately desire.